It was a dream…just a dream.
The night covered my sight
The sky closed me in
The sun melted my life
While the snow froze my heart
The wind blew my years
The tree’s wilted my age
The rain wiped my memories
And the clouds cried my tears
I waited…and waited
I was lost in a fog of thoughts
I had no sense of direction…
It was all the same
But, there was always hope…
Just a ray of light…
Lit by the moon.
I slowly open my eyes
And have a look around
I see a lot of people
I hear a lot of sound
I see a massive box
It’s shaped as a square
People moving inside it
As I stand there and stare
People going to work
Children going to school
Others on a holiday
Splashing in a pool
Men seducing women
Girls flirting with boys
Everyone is so busy
The world is full of noise
There is some joy
But a lot more pain
Some people are crazy
While others are sane
I stand outside the box
And look at them all
Wishing I could join in
With my heart and soul
But no matter how hard I try,
To enter the box and go in
I know it’s a lost battle
And that I would never win
So I hold my head up high
And I raise my chin
I will always be on the outside...
On the outside...looking in!
AND SOMETIMES
I slowly open my eyes
And have a look around
I see a lot of people
But there is no sound
I see a small box
It’s shaped as a square
I’m standing inside it
As people look and stare
I hold out my hand
Wanting someone with me
But none of them respond
They pretend not to see
I look from face to face
There is no-one I recognize
I take a small step back
And something inside me dies
They are ALL on the outside
And I am in here all alone
And deep down I know
I will always be on my own
So here I find myself
Just where I wanted to be
Inside of the box
But there is no-one with me
The time has finally come
For us to say goodbye
Yet that thought depresses me
And I really dont know why
Once, not so long ago
I used to call you friend
But that isnt true anymore
Because this is the end
Although I enjoyed talking to you
I will never understand
Why I let it all happen
Why I reached and took your hand
At times u said things
That really made me hurt
Sometimes u crossed the line
And made me feel like dirt
The friendship we shared
Was never meant to last
It has disappeared now
And become a thing of the past
I will always remember how
You walked away from me
Or was it I who walked away?
Im not sure, as you can see
We used to share our stories
But now what will you do?
Who will you confide in?
Who will confide in you?
And here I sit and wonder
Who is next in your line?
Because I have decided
That no one will be in mine
Please leave me alone
And dont bother me anymore
You have done more than enough
And left me feeling sore
You achieved your goal
What you wanted, you took
Now I glance back at the past
And take one last look
You always wanted more from me
Than I was willing to give
So now we've gone our separate ways
each with a different life to live
Our time has come and gone
And time we cant turn back
And in each others hearts
We each left a small crack
In time we will forget
And our wounds will seal
And eventually in the end
Each of the scars will heal
I will always remember you
And wonder how you are
And no matter how close we became
From you I will always be far
Sometimes on those quiet days
When you have nothing to do
Let me glide through your memory
And spend some time with you
In that little moment
When your surprised to see me there
Remember me and know
That for you I will always care
I knew that this would happen
I knew that I would see this day
But what I didnt know at all
Is that I would feel this way
I didnt know but now I do
Yet now it is too late
You've left a deep scar in my heart
And this is my bloody fate
You are a stranger to me now
A person who is unknown
And what hurts the most
Is without you I feel alone
I hope one day I will let it all go
I hope someday I will forgive you
And at the same time, I really hope
That you can forgive me too
Although I hate to admit it
I miss you and will always do
I will never forget the time we shared
Thats a promise from me to you
What crime did I commit?
What wrong did I do?
To be punished in such a way
To be tortoured by you
Your words drive me crazy
You get under my skin
As much as I try with you
I know I will never win
You irritate me so much
You are such a pain
One day very soon
I will actually go insane
You know how to push me
You annoy me so much
But my pride and dignity
I will never let you touch
When I read what you type
And listen to what you say
I remember how I met you
And I curse that bloody day
You think your god’s gift
Well here is a reality check
I’m not in the least interested
Not even in a peck!
You need to get over yourself
You need to stop being vain
Because by talking to you
I have nothing to lose or gain
I talk to you out of choice
You have no control over me
It’s all in my hands
Its simple, can’t you see?
You don’t know how to treat a lady
Your manners are bad
You are so rude sometimes
You really drive me mad!
I know it doesn’t bother you
I know that you don’t care
But sometimes you say things
And I wonder how you dare
And so now I ask myself
Why do I put up with you?
And then I start to wonder
Why you put up with me too
I know that I give back
As good as I get
I’m probably the biggest bitch
That you have ever met
I annoy you just as much
If the truth be told
My tongue is very sharp
And I can be very bold
We are bad for each other
All we ever do is fight
I don’t understand why we bother
It just doesn’t seem right
I just wanted you to know
How much you get to me
So I wrote you this poem
In the hope that you would see
But I know you will never change
You’ll always be the same
So I’m going to shush now
And continue in this game!
